can't REALLY feel bad about losing something i didn't have for long..

i suppose this news that i can't drive may be more upsetting if i had my driver's license for longer than about a month before i got too injured to be able to use it anymore. however, that doesn't reduce my frustration i'll be forced to have when applying to jobs (i can tell that employers want to hire employees who actually have a car/guaranteed way to and from work when i'm applying to jobs now.. i'm not sure if that's also why someone in boston asked me if i had a job and if i planned on working when i moved to boston- i think i told them that i needed something to keep me busy because bad things tend to happen when i'm not busy.. i just realized how much of a nut i probably came off but at least i was honest). i found two more pca companies to call tomorrow or when i get to it. i'm pretty sure this boston move is actually happening for me because one of the ics workers this morning was helping me with something (i can't remember what it was right now) and he said casually to me, "oh.. is that where you're moving?" NOT "is that where you're TRYING to move?" or "is that where you WANT to move?" so i hope this doesn't fall through. oh yeah- it was about finding out this income information about this waiting list for a new jersey housing company that i've been registered with for at least 3 or 4 years i think. i told him that i just wanted a back-up plan in case this plan (for some reason) falls through and doesn't work for me (knowing my luck with things).